This post I feel that its a struggle that many face, I am one too.
I struggle with . . .
To Eat Healthy . . .
To Exercise Daily . . .
To Lose Weight . . .
To Sleep 8-10 Hours . . .
Now whether its all part of the chronic illness we all live and share, however for some it might be doing one thing or another that can help with staying healthy and living healthy.
For the past couple weeks I've seen many of my friends on facebook share their accomplishments of losing weight, eating healthy and essentially feeling healthy. I'm not negative on their journey, I'm glad that they are getting to a point to where they want to be. However my reality isn't that easy and it's probably not easy for many others as well.
To Eat Healthy is a Struggle . . .
For me, you wouldn't think I eat excessively and I don't really but I do eat a lot of fried food and not so much grilled stuff. I don't mind grilled stuff and for some things I would actually prefer it just because sometimes those Crispy fried food is a little too tough on my teeth and I'm very self-conscious about my teeth.
This biggest issue I have is that I can't eat all the GREEN Veggies which is very good for you but bad for my blood thinner. Over the past month between both weeks before I do my regular blood work (it's done every 21 days) my INR has been low but since one of my favorite veggie was on sale that I consumed it quickly and in large consumptions. For this particular veggie it costs about $4 a pound!!! and when it's on sale it's about a $1.98 a pound.
But again my blood thinner hates it and during this previous doctor appt for my upcoming infusion, I had asked how long does it take before the veggie starts interfering with the blood thinner and she said that it's almost right away after it all digested of course.
What most doctors do is increase the dose of the blood thinner to compensate with the veggie intake but after what had happen to me in 2013 which part of it was due to being on a high dose of coudamin and my INR was literally through the roof where my doctors were acting as quickly as they could to write an order and have it process for me to get an Vitamin K shot. So we know that and I express almost daily that I don't ever want a repeat of 2013.
So basically I don't try to eat a whole lot of green veggie and if I do its best that I have it maybe once a week or twice a week on an low portion. But I think now my goal is to eat my favorite veggie when it's back on sale to eat it two week before I have to do my routine blood work/check up. So yes the Struggle is real when trying to eat healthy.
To Exercise Daily is a struggle . . .
To exercise daily, I found that I like working out early afternoon or late morning but as you know some of us deal with fatigue. For me it's that finding the right routine for me to get repetitive but after my last semester ESPECIALLY DURING my last semester, I couldn't work out. I was struggling in school and literally would be exhausted by the end of the day because the stress I had would drained me but I try to maintain positive throughout the whole semester. I had probably put at least 20 hours maybe 35 hours a week during that ONE semester.
So Exercise wasn't in the picture, I'd probably gone about a year without working out I might have maybe one here and one there in this past year and my mom who works out three days a week always frown when I tell her that I didn't go to the gym. But she doesn't understand, I don't have that kind of energy and plus I'd already begin to wind down for the day, she doesn't wind down until after she's done at the gym. It's work and gym then comes home and by the time she's done it's already almost quarter to 8pm. I read that it's not good for you to work out at night because it keeps you awake, you eat late and your digestive is slower when you exercise. Plus a few other things. I do bowl in a league once a week and that helps during the winter times but now that spring is coming around and the season is coming to an end, I will have to find myself going to the gym and work out.
Losing Weight is a Struggle . . .
Losing Weight sort of ties in with the two things I discussed above, those two things can aide in losing weight. I know I could lose 20-25 pounds but I'm not one of those people that stress out over what their weight it because I'm not going to adapt to what Society believes that we should be. I'm going to adapt to myself and where I'm happy. I still hate how Society will still give pregnant women a hard time on their weight gain and a hard time on the "losing weight battle" Kelly Clarkson obviously been on the media lately and people are critiquing her because she hadn't lost the baby weight but as long you feel comfortable in your own skin why should you worry about how society thinks you should be?
Society have been groomed a certain way that isn't adaptable for every normal horses and every single zebras in the world. I'm even more appalled that Giuliann Rancic from ENews was getting criticized for how skinny she is, that women went through breast cancer, she went through fertility issues and she is still taking some drugs for her cancer that causes her to not really gain weight. Giulianna should have never gotten those rude and ignorant comments, because she was also struggling, and I applaud her for being open about it and wanted to set the record straight even though she should have never had to.
So I know it will take time to get to the weight where I'm comfortable, I know that I'll adapt comfortably when I have children. I will not let society tell me what weight I should be . . . I will be happy if I weight 145 pounds. If a guy tells me that I should lose 30 pounds because I'm "fat", I'll kick him out of the door . . . I have insecurity about my weight and how I look but I refused to be look in the way he thinks I should be as well to Society. If a guy tells me that he'll help me with my weight loss plan, then I know that he supports me and love me for who I am and not by what my weight is.
You need to be happy with your body, it's your body . . . only you can be the toughest critic.
To Sleep 8-10 Hours is a struggle . . .
Now the whole sleeping 8 to 10 hours a night has to be every single adult problem, whether it just their daily life that sleeping for that many hours just doesn't seem reasonable. Some people struggle with sleep issues, I know my dad does with sleep apnea so he could only get maybe 4 hours a night if that. It's a struggle for him as for everyone else in the world.
For me I am a night owl, I don't stay up all night but I like to do things at night like write, read, watch a movie or anything else that doesn't require a whole lot of energy. My brain is consider creative, I'm one of those that has that emotional brain aspect, but as far to how would that prevent me from sleeping 8 to 10 hours is basically sometimes I get "Train of thoughts" and I'll toss and turn throughout the night. Then sometimes for no explanation I'll won't completely fall asleep and this has only have happen a couple times. But I'm a slow mover in the morning, I have to get up at least an hour before I have to go somewhere. Plus because I do frequently get up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom and that could be two to four times a night ranging between 12 to almost 6 in the morning.
But another thing is that it takes me a while to fall asleep, for years I had to listen to thunderstorm music just to sooth me to sleep now I don't do that except for a few times when I really need it. Now I'd simply put a sleep timer on my tv and I'll usually fall asleep quicker that way. Is this a struggle or is this a life choice, it could be both . . .depending on how you look at it. I know that us Zebras should be getting more hours of sleep at night because of our health and our body relies on us to get as much rest as possible and rejuvenate.
We all have struggle with something(s) and yes it's up to ourselves to make the changes however you know that changes can be tough. Changes takes a long time. If you have gone through a change adjustment, give yourself an pat on the back. If you are just starting to want to make changes, just remember Take ONE STEP AT A TIME.